Voice over for my
short film starved
Fist two shots are in
silence as she wakes up and turns off her alarm.
Shot 3- On some
days I feel the warmth of the sunlight hitting my face and I feel uplifted and positively
happy with myself. And then there are other days where I have no motivation, I lie
there thinking about the day and the different challenges I’m going to have to
face, there is no sunlight, no positivity, just darkness and the emptiness inside.
Shot 4- I stare into
my reflection and there’s nothing, I don’t recognise myself anymore, but I don’t
care. No one understands, I try to put a brave face on and pretend nothing is
wrong, but there is no denning it, there is something wrong with me and I’m
scared.
Shot 5- I see everything
as a routine, wake up, get ready, skip breakfast and head straight for school.
Shot 6 and 7 silence,
dialogue
Shot 8 no voice over
Shot 9&10- I don’t
mind school, I guess it takes my mind off everything but each day I feel weaker
and I’m worried that my friends and teachers will start to notice. My mum has
and she gets upset every time I say I’m not hungry. The truth is, I am but
after a while I get used to it I guess, but I can’t help it now, I’m in a cycle
and I can’t get out.
Shot 11- Every day
the only thing I look forward to is my dancing after school. It is where I can
be myself, forget the day, the worries and pain.
Shot 12- However,
the voices are still there, I try to ignore them but sometimes they are just
too loud. Little things like seeing my refection in a mirror or a window makes
me remember my deep secret and my insecurities.
Shot 13- I am
never released from the fear or dread. Even having a snack in a dance class, I can’t
and I’m embarrassed for being this way.
Shot 14- I want to
be healthy and to be like all the other girls who don’t think anything of it. I
know I’m not fuelling my body and that is why I feel so weak so often.
Shot 15- I remember
a time, when I was at my very worse. I was in my ballet class and I hadn’t eaten
all day other than a biscuit at lunch. I started feeling really weak and dizzy
and before I knew it, everything felt muffled and blurry.
Shot 16- I woke up
with everyone surrounding me and my head was pounding.
Shot 17- And it
was then I knew I needed actual help.
Shot 18 black out
Shot 19- For the
next couple of weeks I wasn’t allowed to go to school or dance. The doctors
told me I needed to get better by resting and eating again. I would lie in my
bed for hours thinking about how I could let myself get this bad. The truth is I
didn’t release I was that ill, I knew that there was something wrong with me
but I didn’t know I was starving myself and becoming anorexic.
Shot 20- It was
then, when I was laying in my bed, I realised that I needed to actually do
something to help me get better as this would be the only way I could break
this vicious cycle and be able to dance again and do normal things that a teenage
girl does. Not only did I starve myself from food but I starved myself from happiness
which came from the feeling of freedom when I danced.
Finishes with a dance to a song called Helium which will also show flash backs of her past
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